Sodaro's Stories

August 10, 2014

Who I Am

Filed under: Writer's thoughts — michelle sodaro @ 7:56 pm
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“I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I’m not who I was…
I write about love and such
Maybe cuz I want it so much…
I was thinking maybe I, I should let you know
I am not the same,
But I never did forget your name.”
“I’m not who I was” Brandon Heath.

Recently a good friend told me I was “probably one of the least broken women I’ve ever met” and I had to stare at the message for a minute until I realized that it was an absolutely true statement and I also realized that once again, I had proven my Master’s Thesis right. My research was about using writing as therapy…using the idea of “free association” of psychology and applying it to paper. And as I have been writing and writing and writing, I have healed my scars, both real and imaginary. And just like Brandon Heath’s song, I’m not who I was.
When I taught high school, another friend once asked me why “Ms. Sodaro” was so different than Michelle, and that question has stuck with me for over a decade. I used to have this separate mask for Ms. Sodaro — who was always confident and strong and sure, whereas Michelle was not any of these things.
Now Michelle is generally the same person as Ms. Sodaro and as such, I am a better teacher and a stronger person over all.
Writing did all of this for me. Putting pen to paper every day (if possible). That is always my goal — every day, whether it is for 30 minutes or 16 hours, I put pen to paper and as the ink fills the page, scars are healed, wrongs are forgiven (not forgotten — they could be plot points later), and peace fills the pieces of me that once were broken.
Sometimes it takes a friend to see us clearly because we have gotten too used to seeing the scars that we forget to look at the new skin and growth.
Master’s Thesis…for the win.

August 3, 2014

Pens and notebooks

Filed under: Writer's thoughts — michelle sodaro @ 9:33 pm
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I write this blog today because not only is it school supply season (which is kind of my Christmas) but also because it is tax-free weekend in Missouri, so all those beautiful pens and notebooks are tax free 😀 (Yes, I have taken advantage in multiple stores!!!!)
I have had people (mostly EX-boyfriends) tell me such nonsense as “you have too many pens and notebooks.” This is ridiculous. First of all, it’s not as if there is a set number of notebooks and pens one person should have and since no such number exists, it is impossible to have more than that number (math people, just let me have this one in case there is such a way to figure this out).
Secondly, just shhhh…all of my pens and notebooks will serve a purpose, so therefore they are all most definitely needed. Too many notebooks and pens…too many pens and notebooks. What does that even mean???
Every project needs a different notebook, just as every project needs a specific pen for the magic to work. I can’t explain the science of it (or of anything, if I am being honest). I just go with what works. This novel wants a pink notebook and a black gel pen…got it. This novel wants a blue pen with a checkerboard notebook. I have that right here. My Cupid series wants a Pentel RSVP pen and a white legal pad…okay.
Two things I have learned as an author are to not argue with my muse and to not question the process. By doing these things I have far more days where I am productive than days when I’m not…so I buy pens and notebooks every chance I get, because I never know what my next project might need.
Too many pens and notebooks…what nonsense.

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