Sodaro's Stories

January 20, 2017

End of a road…

Filed under: Uncategorized — michelle sodaro @ 6:04 pm
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I find myself standing at the end of a road…I decided in May of last year that my teaching career needed to come to a close. I had been questioned about my integrity one too many times because my percentage of adults who didn’t pass my course was too high…the implication being that I am a “bad teacher” when the truth is in fact I am a very good one…one who feels the sting of every single “F” I have ever given out…did I not do enough? Could I have pushed harder? Did I push too hard?

I have cried at every graduation I have been to…every graduation except the one I attended last year…last year I just felt numb. My 20 years in the field have put me through every emotion possible…every emotion except numb. I have never been numb…and to feel it at one of the greatest days of the year in the education world…I knew there was a problem.

The world of education is changing. It has changed over my 2 decades in the field, of course, but the changes I see now are not ones I can bend toward, as I have done for countless other changes.

12/31/17 will be my last day as Ms. Sodaro, my last day as a “teacher,” my last day in this role I have played for twenty years of my life.

Last month I self-published my 6th novel. I am going to self-publish 4 more this year. Clearing projects off my plate. Making room for new ones.

I don’t know yet how I will pay my bills in 2018…I know I will have a job. I know that it will be 40hours a week. Clock in. Do my job. Clock out. Go home and work on what makes me feel alive. One day I will pay my bills with my books…and until then I will do whatever I have to do.

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8 Comments »

  1. Michelle,
    I understand how you feel. The education world at every level is experiencing change. Right now, the dust has not settled yet to determine its outcome. I enjoy my current job, but I miss teaching too.
    I am sure that many students will miss not having you to help with practicing critical thinking. It is an important task to perform in life today. Sometimes, it’s good to change our pace in life. I hope you are able to find a writing job. I am sure that you would enjoy it. Good luck discovering your year’s quest for change!

    Comment by John Lyon — January 20, 2017 @ 6:32 pm | Reply

    • It is not the profession I fell in love with…and I want to leave while I still love it…my previous students have expressed their feelings about me leaving and it is heartwarming and humbling.

      Comment by michelle sodaro — January 24, 2017 @ 4:51 pm | Reply

  2. I’m sure you will find success and fulfillment in whatever you do.

    Comment by davidgscott99 — January 20, 2017 @ 10:26 pm | Reply

  3. Noooooooo!!!! I can’t help but feel a bit responsible for this. You are a good teacher and no one at the campus level questioned you, only an misguided policy. Always wish you the best of luck though.

    Comment by Adam — January 24, 2017 @ 4:43 pm | Reply

    • You were merely the messenger. It has never been the people who interacted with me as a teacher. It was always the higher ups who tend to know very little about education. All Corporate did last May was make me realize it was time to move on. It was an honor to work for you.

      Comment by michelle sodaro — January 24, 2017 @ 4:46 pm | Reply

  4. You will always be Ms. Sodaro to me.

    Comment by Aldis Tuck — February 4, 2017 @ 4:00 am | Reply


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