Sodaro's Stories

June 20, 2013

Now

Filed under: Writer's thoughts — michelle sodaro @ 9:52 pm
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“There is no perfect time to write. There is only now.” Barbara Kingsolver
I think this would pertain to just about everything in life…some people waste opportunities by waiting for the perfect time for it to occur. On the other hand, things happen right when they are meant to and not a moment before.
Right now, I have the closest thing possible to the perfect time for writing. I am making the most of it every single day,  and for the most part, I am doing well on makong progress. I still need to kick it up a notch though and make better use of  my blessing of time. After all, I never know when I will happen to have less time to use as I see fit. I need to make use of my NOW. And so I will. I am very excited for the things that are happening in my  life and the direction and I will enjoy every possibility and opportunity that comes my way…

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August 11, 2012

Right Here, Right Now

Filed under: Writer's thoughts — michelle sodaro @ 12:38 pm
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“Right here, right now, there is no other place I’d rather be.” Right here, right now — Jesus Jones

Okay, so that song lyric is not the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth so help me God…but it’s a goal, and I think it’s a relatively good one to have.
I spend a lot of time looking forward. It is, on one hand, the way I get and keep my momentum to accomplish my aspirations. On the other hand, it can (and has been) be argued that I spend so much time in the “then” that I completely disregard the “now.”
I picture myself on a beach, writing 8-10 hours a day, loving the knowledge that my novels are out in the world, that my characters are out there for people to love or hate or disregard compleltey…but they exist outside of my head. My educational writings are used as reference material or paperweights, but again, exist in tangible form. This is the “then” that I dream of…will I get there? While there are no certainties in life, I wouldn’t bet against me.
But my “now” is not my “then.” No where near in fact…and that has been what I have been focused on…how much better my “then” will be compared to my “now.” I’ll be happier, I’ll exercise more, I’ll find another love I can’t walk away from, I’ll have more money…I’ll just have a better life.
Now I’m sure some of those could very well turn out to be true…but now without my changing my mind frame. It’s not an “us vs. them” situation…or more to the point, a “now vs. then” situation. It doesn’t have to be all or nothing..or perhaps better expressed, I don’t have to pine toward the all of “then” and bemoan the nothing of “now.”
Can I write 8-10 hours a day now? No, of course not. I work two jobs, am finishing my PhD, and like occasional sleep…but can I write every day, even for 2-3 hours, thus establishing the habit now…for then? Yes, this I can do. Will I be happier if this happens? Of course.
Can I exercise more “now” thus making it less work to do “then?” OF course…will I? Hmmm….
Will I find another love I can’t walk away from? It seems likely if I put myself out there that this could happen.
Will I have more money? Hopefully…or at least less debt. Just as with exercise, every pound I lose or bill I pay now leads to a healthier then.
Will I be happier? Not unless I let of the negative energy NOW.

July 17, 2012

My lists have failed me today

Filed under: Writer's thoughts — michelle sodaro @ 2:24 pm
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So, many of you know that I am a chronic list-maker…I make lists about my lists…and then cross that off the list. Lists calm me when things get swirly and help me focus when my overly full plate starts to spin and make a mess (which almost never happens…or almost always happens…I forget which).
I have a list of things I need to get done today…a list of tasks that need to occupy my time until I can pretend to sleep tonight and hit the road tomorrow for four days away from work and life where I get totally PhD immersion and four nights of hotel comfort, writing and RELAXING. While this isn’t a vacation, per se…it is AWAY…and that is enough for now.
But before I get to then, I have to get through now…and I have very specific things I need to do now, to get to then…but, um…well…I don’t want to. I want to get past now, now….and get to then, now. As it will take longer to get to then, if I just sit around and wait for it, I will force myself to get my things done now…but my lists today bring me no joy because I keep flipping the list to tomorrow…
sigh…it’s going to be a long day.

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